Depression

Depression defined by Mr. Webster is: an act of depressing or a state of being depressed: as a: a pressing down : lowering b (1): a state of feeling sad : dejection (2): a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies c (1): a reduction in activity, amount, quality, or force (2): a lowering of vitality or functional activity.

Let me clarify...I am not depressed! But I am dealing with a depressed husband which really brings down a room. My problem is trying to figure out how to convince him to go and see someone. I honestly am not qualified to deal with this problem.

What is it like living with someone going through depression? Well it means that most of the time you have to hear about what is wrong with you and the life that you have together. You have to walk around praying that he had a good day today. It means that you have watch someone you love suffer and there is absolutely nothing you can do or say to help them through it. It means that you go to sleep hoping that today will be a better day and go to bed praying that this will all be over with soon. And the only time that you really feel relief is when that person is not in the house.

My plan so far has been to carry the load and deal with his mood changes. I tell myself that it is the depression and not his true feelings. But depression is really hard not to take personal. I was informed today that I needed to keep us going because he is on a sinking ship. Unfortunately I am afraid that he is going to pull me under with him.

The one thing that I have going for me to keep me afloat is my girls and my optimism. I just wish that I could slip a little bit of that into a pill and drug my husband with it. But I remember that the Lord does not give us anything that we can not happen. And that our affliction will only be but a moment.